First Blog!!!!!!!

I don't know if I will be any good at blogging, but I thought I would give it a try. I have so many thoughts floating around in this crazy head of mine, I thought it would be a good idea to express them some how.

My life has been turned upside down and all around in the past few weeks, months, even years. I have faced many trials and am learning how to deal with each one of them.

Three years ago this June I married my best friend, we found out we were going to have a baby that following August. Leo Parker was born In April on 09 and he was the best gift I have ever been given. He is what gets me up each morning and keeps me going throughout the day.

When I was 7 months pregnant with Leo, our family received devastating, life changing news. My hero, best friend, encourager, my MOM was diagnosed with Stage 4 Lung Cancer. This news was unreal to me since my mom was never a smoker. My mom was given only months to live(news that she did not share with me until very recently) Over the past two years my mom has proven herself to be the most loyal and devoted mother, grandmother, wife and teacher. My mom went to be with Jesus on March 9th 2011. She taught me so much in my 24 years with her. She left us too soon and every day without her is a struggle.

One of the last places my mom and I went to together just the two of us was to my ultrasound to see baby number two, who is due this July. It was such a special day for both of us as we watched the sweet little boy moved around. I am glad I can say my mom was the first to know it was a boy and the first to see him. My mom was so looking forward to meeting grand baby number two.

Over the past few years I have had some great and not so great  life changing moments, each one of them has helped to shape the person I am now. ... Marriage, babies, health problems, marriage problems, over coming marriage problems, buying our first house, financial problems, going back to school, saying good bye to my mom.

The soundtrack to my life right now it this...

"Can't Give Up Now"

There will be mountains that I will have to climb
And there will be battles that I will have to fight
But victory or defeat, it's up to me to decide
But how can I expect to win If I never try.

I just can't give up now
I've come too far from where I started from
Nobody told me the road would be easy
and I don't believe he brought me this far to leave me

Never said there wouldn't be trials
Never said I would't fall
Never said that everything would go the way I want it to go
But when my back is against the wall
And i feel all hope is gone,
I'll just lift my head up to the sky
And say help me to be strong

I just can't give up now
I've come too far from where I started from
Nobody told me the road would be easy
and I don't believe he brought me this far to leave me

[Hook:]
No you didn't bring me out here to leave me lonely
Even when I can't see clearly
I know that you are with me(so I can't)

I just can't give up now
I've come too far from where I started from
Nobody told me the road would be easy
and I don't believe he brought me this far to leave me



My dear friend Beka used to sing this to me when I was feeling blue. It is very special to me.