Update on Baby Killian and I.

Well I can honestly say that I am ready to get out of bed. You should see how white I am. YUCK! My legs have lost all tone they once had. My every other day shower privileges tire me out, Wheelchair rides outside are the highlight of my days(When I get them). I know every nurse here by name, I know all of my doctors partners and the names of their kids. I have become friends with the cleaning ladies, the chaplain, the music therapist, dietitian, massage therapist, physical therapist.
THE GOOD NEWS!!!!!!!

I am in my 30th week! We had a sono this week and Killian looked great, growing right on schedule. He weighs 3lbs9oz. He has lots of hair and big feet. He was showing off for me too, playing with his toes. The rupture on my placenta could not be found on the sono, so that was very exciting news.


I did have a little bit of a scare Monday night and into Tuesday. I had contractions all night long every 4 mins. They gave me meds to try and stop them and after several hours they stopped. Before then I was not dilated or effaced at all, after the contractions I was dilated to a 2 and 20% effaced. Luckily the contractions stopped and I did not go into active labor, we are hoping they do not come back. Many people can be dilated to a 2 for several weeks before the labor goes any further.

Killian is still being a warrior and holding on. I cannot wait to get to know this little boy, I feel like we are going to have such a special bond because of all of this. (He is kicking me hard as I type this.) He is way more active than Leo was. Leo did not move around or kick a whole lot, but Killian never stops moving, I don't think he sleeps. Leo is getting excited about having a brother, when he gets here he jumps in my bed and kisses my belly before he kisses me, he says "hi baby brudder, love you baby brudder." it is so sweet. :)

Erin

I will trust in God.

I will not be bitter that I am stuck in this hospital bed, I will choose to be thankful that my baby is growing and doing well. I will use this time to grow closer to God and prepare myself for what my be to come.

I will not be mad that the Lord took my mother, I will be grateful that He blessed be with her in the first place.

I will not be jealous that my husband is getting to spend so much alone time with Leo, I will be happy that my boys are growing closer.

I will not feel sorry for myself that I am being put through this difficult season, I will rejoice that the Lord is holding me and I will except what I have been given.

I will not worry about what could happen to this baby or to me, I will trust that Jesus is in control.

I will trust God even when it hurts. I will accept my portion.

I want to be more like the apostle Paul who said... " I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances... I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation... I can do all things through Him who gives me strengh."

God... is the blessed controller of all things, the king over all kings and the master of all masters. -1 Timothy 6:15

Lord, you have assigned me my portion and my cup; you have made my lot secure. -Psalm 16:5

I keep my eyes eyes always on the Lord. With him at my right hand, I will not be shaken. -Psalm16:8

Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. -Phillippians 4:6,7

Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer. -Romans 12:12

Erin